Reframing Your Past: Healing

“In essence, healing is a highly subversive act in our culture ... It’s about challenging the idea that someone’s value is dependent on how well they fit into an abnormal, unhealthy culture. Ideally, as healers in the broadest sense, that’s what we should be doing.”

-- Gabor Maté, physician, speaker, and bestselling author.

Attaining the life you want can be accomplished in a number of ways: You might find your own path, or you might try carrying out the usual prescription (education, career, family, etc.) But regardless of your choices, life can be difficult. As a result, finding happiness and managing one’s own behavior can be challenging or virtually impossible without healing from those difficulties as a step toward progress. To cope, you can:

  1. Meditate, pray, seek professional help, or rely on your social network and family.
  2. Insulate yourself (alcohol, drugs, overeating) or project your pain onto others. Or you might become a workaholic or even have your life cut short by stress-related physical maladies. None of these are helpful ways of coping!

Then, where does one begin? Actually, anywhere you like, but it certainly makes more sense to choose one of the options listed in A as opposed to polluting or distracting yourself as described in B. After all, do you want to say “Yes” to life, “No” to life, or struggle somewhere in the middle?

Assuming you decide on one or more of the A options, you will likely find yourself grasping for fulfillment – trying old or even new strategies, and that may help. But are those choices sustainable? An acquaintance of mine once said of a friend, “He has made a number of changes, but he’ll likely find his way back to his own private hell.” Not very optimistic, but it is a common example of how recurring patterns can sabotage progress. In order to make these choices work for you, you must first begin to heal from the difficulties that brought you to the moment of change.

Pain and Progress

You have heard sayings such as, “You can’t love another until you love yourself.” That’s good advice, but not altogether true. A better way of saying it might be, “You can’t feel the freedom to fully love another unless you love yourself.

So how do you learn to love yourself? You begin by recognizing that you can’t love yourself fully if you have (in the past) shut down your feelings. Why? As Mayra Mendez, licensed psychotherapist and program coordinator at Providence Saint John's Child and Family Development Center, puts it:

While emotional numbing blocks or shuts down negative feelings and experiences, it also shuts down the ability to experience pleasure, engage in positive interactions and social activities, and interferes with openness for intimacy, social interests, and problem-solving skills. Then how do we heal ourselves? How do we become the people we want to be? By realizing the best first step is to reduce that emotional numbing that virtually everyone employs. That is, we need to relate to our pain frankly and honestly – and not continue to avoid it with shut-down feelings.

Learning how to relate to pain is covered on here: Connecting With Your Deeper Feelings. Relating or connecting is central to the first step toward healing.

Gabor Maté describes four steps of healing in his book Scattered Minds (author’s text is in italics below):

  • Compassionate inquiry for insight into your true self. This involves asking yourself, or being asked, about why you have behaviors that are not working for you. What happened that should not have happened? What did not happen that should have happened? Developing a new view toward oneself is no easy task for it goes against the grain of a lifetime of conditioning. It is not a matter of so-called positive thinking or the naive affirmations exemplified by vows like, “Today I will be kinder to myself.” It requires the shedding, gradually, of defenses constructed long ago out of sheer necessity.
  • Self-acceptance – tolerating guilt and anxiety. Self-acceptance does not mean self-admiration or even self-liking at every moment of our lives, but tolerance for all our emotions, including those that make us feel uncomfortable.
  • You don’t punish yourself for where you find yourself. Here is a good rule: If you want to heal, you HAVE to stop blaming yourself for where you find yourself today. This bears repeating. Do you want to heal? Then you HAVE to stop with the blame. You need to show and feel kindness and compassion for the person you are right now. I have no reason to see myself as a victim, but I did not choose the circumstances that shaped my neurophysiology or my personality, which are one and the same thing. One can make choices when one becomes awake, not before.
  • Choosing a guide. Pain cannot be killed; it needs to be listened to. It has a story to tell and lessons to teach. In the project of self-parenting, this is one essential service the adult cannot, without the greatest difficulty, provide for himself ... The purpose of psychotherapy and counseling is not that the therapist either heals the “patient” or advises him what to do with his life. The goal is to mature and to individuate, to become a self-respecting person in his own right. In other words, the goal is not to be “cured” but to develop. The role of the therapist is, in part, that of a talking mirror in which the individual can see himself more clearly reflected, helping him to reflect on himself. Until he acquires the necessary skills, without a mirror he can no more see his psyche than his own eyes.

I would like to add this one more step:

  • Create an environment in the world where you are valued for who you are. The operative word is "create" because this step requires your creativity. What kind of job will you take? One that pays well but they treat you like dirt or one where you are respected and valued? What kind of mate will you choose? One who will impress your friends or one who will love you unconditionally? Where do you want to live? Who will be your friends? Use your best abilities to create a place in this world where you are valued for who you are.

Taking these steps undoubtedly will lead you to a better life. You will feel more energy when your brain no longer has to suppress painful emotions. You will likely experience a feeling of power when you face your pain and create a cooperative relationship with it. British psychiatrist and psychoanalyst Anthony Storr sums it up by saying:

When a person is encouraged to get in touch with and express his deepest feelings, in the secure knowledge that he will not be rejected, criticized, nor expected to be different, some kind of rearrangement or sorting-out process often occurs within the mind which brings with it a sense of peace; a sense that the depths of the well of truth have really been reached.

But give yourself some time. Remember Gabor Maté’s words:

It requires the shedding, gradually, of defenses constructed long ago out of sheer necessity.

Healing is not like a light switch. Instead it is like stepping out into bright daylight after living in a cave. At first you can make out just what is close to you. But after some time you adjust and see your immediate surroundings. Later on, you realize you can make out the mountains in the distance and even the trees that cover them. Throughout this process you will begin to feel a sense of peace, as you gain a deeper understanding of how you fit in to the natural world around you.

Other Paths Toward Healing

All of the methods shown in the Growth and Transformation Model support improving your confidence and well-being. And, as such, they will promote healing. So make it a point to revisit that page frequently. One more way to underpin your sense of strength and well-being is by examining "posttraumatic growth." Nearly everyone experiences trauma of one kind or another before becoming an adult. And nearly everyone comes through that trauma with a new strength or area of growth. Now might be a good time to do a five-minute inventory, which can be found on this page: Posttraumatic Growth.

You're Perfectly Fine

Here's a nice way to look at your life while taking steps to improve it. When you were born, you likely had not suffered much and were perfectly fine. Then your experiences came along leaving you in a less-than-optimal state of being. Try to think about your experiences as a sort of hypnosis. Instead of feeling like you and your experiences are one and the same, start imagining yourself as being "perfectly fine" -- but at the same time, needing to work through the hypnosis. You just need to "dehypnotize" yourself. Creating a new superhighway of thought patterns is a big part of the dehypnotizing process!

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